Being a mom of two.....

Being a mom is hard, being a mom of two is hard, being a mom of two while your husband goes to medical school is especially hard.

Some days I look at my kids at think, I could have three. I could do it. Then a day like today happens and I think... "How in the world am I going to make it as a mother the rest of my life!" Don't get me wrong... I love my children and even on the hardest of days, I still love them, if not even more then I did the day before. I would never in a million years want to go back to the days of being married and not having any children. Even the worst days are so much more fulfilling to me when my children are in the picture. I love being a mom. But that doesn't mean it isn't sometimes so overwhelmingly hard that I don't know how I'm going to make it. I'm used to hearing kids cry, and a lot of times it doesn't even phase me. But some days....it does. Some days I don't get the dishes done, the laundry folded (or possibly even switched over into the dryer), the floor vacuumed, the dirty clothes picked up off the bathroom floor. Sometimes its all I can do to clothe, feed, and put my children to bed. And even those days sometimes end in tears. But I've come to learn that motherhood is beautiful. It is the hardest and most challenging duty and role I will ever have. I've worked as a med/surg nurse and that job was extremely difficult. But motherhood is still harder. It doesn't end and there is no lunch break. You don't get to go home at the end of shift and call it a day. But despite its difficulty, it is remarkable and more fulfilling than anything I could ever imagine doing.

These days that are hard make me think about what people are saying about stay-at-home moms. What many are saying about the role of a woman. I am so grateful to be a woman. I love being a woman. I love and am grateful that I am different than my husband. We are equals, but we are different. He teaches our children things I couldn't, and vice-versa. I love being a nurturer. I love staying at home. I don't think there is anything wrong with a woman working full time and hating to clean and cook, but there isn't anything wrong with a woman being proud of staying home either. I love taking care of my children while my husband goes to school. And I pray I can continue to be a stay-at-home mom when my husband is done with school and is working, even on the days like these, that try my patience and make me want to just sit in a corner and cry.

Being a mom is hard, but it is beautiful. And I am so grateful I can be a mother!